COLOURS

I love the fall with all the brillant colours on displsy. There is a big maple tree just outside mt window which is alive and bursting with orange and red leaves. All too soon they will start to fall when the weather gets colder. Right now it is mild and calm today. I had several walks and fiund them very enjoyable. Downstairs there was a fashion show of colthes forsale. I do not need anything that I know of. You can be as casual or fahionable as you choose to be. I am sure I will enjoy a good meal again tonigh.

FEAR

Overcoming your fears can be a huge challebge. I remember how afraid I was of flying I did want to go with dad especially when hw flew up to see the children.so I climbed aborad sitting very still afraid to move. Over time I conquered some of this fear. Now I hAVE to conquer my fear of going to the dentist. Again I have to go and get it over with. I am not making a decision to move until this has been taken care oF. I AM HAPPY HERE FOR NOW Going back to a place you find it is never the same. A tough decision. over

OLDER

Getting older is not a choice but happens to all of us. We start losing our strength and then our balance and our memory. I am thankful for the good years that brought me happiness.I have to accept that everything is changing, I like my apartment but I do not like living alone. I enjoy making new friends, I enjoy spending time with my old buddies. On the 30th a small group of us are meeting down stairs here. These friends are so very thoughtful. They all have worries and concerns. We still find lots to laugh about. This after noon Sandra is taking me to the dentist and I dread going. I understand I have no choice. Life is a challenge and I will try to make an effort.

FAITH

Thankful for the gift of faith that has supported me through difficult times. Thankful for all my children and grandchildren. Thankful for the many times Ken has phoned me. Thankful for the visits Carol has made and the times having meals at her house. Thankful for all the times Sandra drives me to appointments, Thankful for Rick and Spenser and the many times Rick does ahopping for me. Thankful for the walks enjoy with Spenser. Thankful for friends who keep in touch, Thankful for my Bible study friens from Colebrook who are visiting me om the 30th. Thankful for my home where I feel safe even in times of lonliness. Thanks Kim for your e mails.

Awake, As Usual

A cool and cloudy morning I am watching the news and it is all about politics, I do not have any interest but maybe should start. Dad was always more interested than I was. The world encourages us to be proud of who we are and what we have done. and I would add to be thankfu.l. Just talked to Kim on the phone and enjoyed it. Also talked to Ken, Hard to keep up with these busy young people. I love my home here and all my new friends, Looking forward to Thanksgiving at Sandra's with all our family.

I May Need Help

I may need help. Rick came this morning and \hlped me. Yesterday I went to Bible study. we had an interesting discussion about Job. My friend who I sit with when Ken is not here has just had an older very talkative German man added to sit with her and her husband, I hear his loud voice and I take on look at Wanda and see she is very unhappy. Maybe he is just nervous. All he is talking about is war stories. I would not like to have him at our table. No worries Ken would ask for him to be moved. Today is Thrusday and I am not going to lunch. My stomach is upset. Happy Spenser and Rick are here.

COOL

I PUT MY SHORTS ON FIRST THING THIS MORNING THINKING IT WOULD WARM UP. NO IT IS GOING TO BE COOL. Had my piece of toast for breakfast and went for a walk. I met one friend who always goes early too. THE SUNRISE HAD BEEN PROMISING but the clouds shut out the warmth. I came home to find a package onmy door step, I was delighted to find a scale wrapped up in the paper. Now I would be able to know my real weight. Yes i had gained weight, Not as much as I had thought but I needed to lose a few pounds. As usual I go to bed early and then I am up early too. i FEEL A LITTLE BORED AT TIMES but I am happy with my life. Many good friends and activities I can attend, Visits from family are joyful times. I will always miss dad but thankful for our life together.