TASKS

Dad had no intention of having surgery.

The doctor agreed that is was a wise choice.

The funny thing is you get bad news, and I take this as bad news having to face cancer,  and then you go home and do all the tasks that have to be done.  Walking the dog, making supper, doing the dishes and watching the hockey game, Kenny phoned to remind us.  

We shared our news with him.

We go to bed early.  I had a heavy anxious feeling. I am afraid and worried for myself as well as for dad.   Dad had a heavy tummy and so had a bad night.  Neither one of us slept very well.

Fortunately we could have a good sleep after breakfast.

Maybe it is time we learned to express our feelings more. so that we can face the future together better.

We have faced many difficult problems in the past but we kept a lot of feelings to ourselves.

We will need faith and trust to make a go of our future together.

We will need courage to make decisions.

Happiness is having loved ones share your life with you.

Dad has an appointment with Dr. Mac to-morrow morning at 9:30.

Sandra motivates us to do  this.

We will have an egg and toast for a light supper.

"Three things will last forever

faith, hope and love."

Thankful that God's love is unconditional

and goes with us into the unknown.

We have lots of friends praying for ys as well.

 

NEWS

Surgery is not an option.

The growth will turn to cancer and they maybe treated.

Good idea to get another opinion about the stomach problems.

SHARING

 

A sunny day with a cold wind.

Spenser got cleaned up and he looks good.

I still cannot put pictures on  except old ones,

I was very touched by the Mother's day card from Kim and Carol.

We have shared so many wonderful times together.

We treasure those we love.

Being a mom was a challenge but the reward has been amazing.

Dad and I are both a little unsteady on our feet so we hold hands when we are out together.

I remember what a thrill it was as a teen-ager to walk holding hands.

We married and soon I had my arms full of little ones.

I loved  holding  little hands.

So over the years dad and I have shared many dreams, and happy moments.

We do not always agree but that keeps life interesting.

Dad is feeling a bit better after a miserable morning.

so we will drive into town to have supper with Panteli.

We appreciate sharing a meal with him.

To-morrow dad goes to see the doctor.

Hopefully we will learn a bit more.

Happiness is having some one to share your life with

who loves you unconditionally.

The more the merrier.

FACTS

There comes a time when facts have to be faced.

Dad's pancreas is not working.

He has to take his digestion meals before meals.

He neglected to do so yesterday

the result a bad night and morning.

He feels weak and his mind slows down too.

So I have been making sure he does it right today.

We did go out in the afternoon.

I went and stood outside in the line up at the bank,

Dad went to London Drugs and the dollar store.

We were very happy to be back home.

Spenser sits by the bedroom window on a chair and watches us go.

He is there when we come home.

I believe that there is a solution to must of our problems

but not always easy to discover it/

People can change.

It is good to listen when people give you advice.

You can then choose to follow it or not.

Give advice only when some one offers it.

Accept help when you need it.

Be thankful.

Be generous.

Learn something new each day.

Use the gifts you have been given to help others.

It is good to slow down and find happiness in the small things.

"To love and be loved is the most empowering and exhilarating of all human emotions."

Jane Goodall

 

BE REAL

Spenser and I walk by this ladies house every day we walk to the park.

I have seen her create beauty,

She has used the rocks, with their natural shapes

to blend in with the flowers she has added

so lovingly.

Sunday is a special day for me.

"There is wonder in the moment if we but look for it

letting it touch us, making us real.

Celebrate the joy of the miracle of life.

The spiritual essence that connects all of life."

The reality is that with life there comes trials and tribulations.

We waiting for our circumstances to change.

We wait for healing of our bodies and our minds.

We are each on our own journey

the lessons we need to learn.

This day was special as we talked to Rick and to Ken.

They are experiencing aches and pains that come with getting older.

There are things we have to accept and things that need to change.

Sorry we missed Sandra and Randy.

Dad told me they left something out in the garden for me.

I looked and looked and could not find because I was looking for the wrong thing.

It was a iron climber for my bush to climb up on.

I laughed when I found it and ran in to tell dad I had found it.

Later in the day I received another gift.

A box of masks.  Very good ones.

A lady came to the door and rang the bell but waited out on the road.

Dad went to the door because I was walking Spenser.

He did not know who she was.

I do not wear a mast when I am out walking maybe some one thinks I should.

I do not Know?

IT is with the Soul we grasp the essence of another human being.  Not just with the mind or even the heart but from within the depths of our souls.

We all have our own ideas about God

We make our own choices about what to believe.

What gives our life purpose and meaning?

A question that only each one of us can answer.

IT is what feels real and true.

Know that everyone is as real as you are.

Real and unique.

We are trying to do our best to be kind and helpful. 

WE are grateful the growth was not cancer

and looking forward to what the /surgeon says on the 28th

We are thankful Spenser is doing better.

Has more energy and not coughing like he did.

We were worried about the little guy.

  

 

CLOUDS

Clouds have produced the rain.

Our gardens do need the rain.

I wi;; wait and see if it shops before taking Spenser.

Yesterday it felt like I had a cloud of doom over me.

This feeling left when Randy and Sandra came in the door with supper.

I was so thankful for their support

during this time.

My day began with a lady running into the Park asking if I had seen a black lab.

I had not and I would have like to support her look for her dog.

I realize that I need to be more aware of what is happening around me.

I felt better when the doctor who did dad's test phoned

saying it was not cancer but could change in twenty years.

That made us laugh.

The next step will be to talk to his surgeon on  Tues. 

" the family is one of nature's masterpieces."

George Santayana

We have felt the support of our family everyday.

TAKING IT EASY

Taking it easy.

Enjoying the beauty of spring.

Dad enjoyed his porridge this morning.

We will enjoy a normal daily routine.

I got his pills all organized.

New ones to be taken at different times.ck 

Dad needs to check it out.

I feel a bit numb.

I feel a little afraid.

I feel uneasy.

I feel angry because it should have been diagnosed sooner.

We are now facing a New Challenge.

with a hopeful heart and a grateful spirit.

We have come through difficult times before.

I pray for strength and courage for us both.

It all seems a little unreal although we expected this outcome.

Waiting for the results of the test.

His growth may be cancer .

It will become cancer if it is not.

Take a deep breath and be calm.