LIVING WORDS

It is a delightfully cool Monday here with a few little drops of rain.

Sunday was a quiet day with church and lunch with friends after.

The message reminded us to listen to our own words.
I FIND MYSELF SAYING CRAZY THINGS AND I WONDER IF THIS IS OLD AGE!
Maybe it is just being free to say something stupid. I think we all have moments when we think I don't believe I said that.

"The battle for good and evil is in our own hearts and we speak from darkness or from the light." words of the minister.


Maybe there is a middle ground where we are just human.

I have found great comfort in the words of scripture that I believe are living words. There are times when it is hard to find the right words to say and that is the time for living silence. You are present with another and you feel their sadness and respect their feelings.


Today we will continue travelling to the cancer clinic for the last four days of radiation.
WE WILL BE SO VERY THANKFUL TO HAVE REACHED THIS GOAL!

MOMENTS TO REMEMBER

I have many beautiful memories of Colebrook Church.
I was very grateful to be asked to give a talk.
I grew up in the United Church where I was taught that thr "secret to a life of meaning was contained in the wisdom within it's pages.
Today we have many books that contain knowledge about all of life.
I believe that we are still continuing to search for answers to the many questions
that we all ask.
I reminded people of the healing ministry of Jesus; and that He is with us everyday to heal the broken-hearted, the sick and the lonely,

MAPS AND MORE MAPS

What LARRY IS READING NOW

Larry uses maps and books of London from 1663 while reading Pepys Diary

He first started reading Pepys diary in the National post's daily journal entry.

The Titles are "The Man in the Making", The Savior of the Navy". "The Years od Peril".

If I was to be stranded on; or go to an island

I would not have any desire to have these books with me.

Maybe it is because I have little interest in maps

and I find his Pepy's daily habits a bit boring.

Faith cannot be mapped out but is a journey into the unknown.

WHAT DO PRAYING PEOPLE AND PARAMETICS HAVE IN COMMOM.

They believe they are helping people and they often spend times on their knees. They both have to listen to people and what they do and what they say depends on the person's needs.
Paramedics use energy to act quickly and when we pray from our hearts spiritual energy is being released. We feel the sadness and the troubles of those around us. We often do not know what words to say but we trust God to help us pray for He cares much more than we do. We carry our prayers with us as we go about our busy days.

"God puts His ear so closely down to your lips that He can hear your faintest whisper"
A quote from Thomas De Witt Talmadge.


EVERYONE HAS PAIN IN THEIR LIVES AND WE ALL LEARN TO COPE IN DIFFERENT WAYS.


Scripture says
there is a time for silence and a time for speech.
there is a time for humility and for wisdom
there is a time for prayer


Thank you Michael John and Mary for your prayers and for all the others who are holding me in their prayers. At times I just know some one is praying! !

THEY ARE INTELLIGENT AND COMPASSIONATE TO ANSWER MY QUESTIONS.

A full house

Morgan looking for the fishies

Morgan just woke up - found new book - grama reading it to her outside

The fixed up room for little guests

Last night I had great fun making the bedrooms into a children's room where imagination could develope. I found Teddy Bears, the Kwola bear, the Kanagroo, the cat and the dolls; and all the favorite story books.
There was a small night light for Ben and the crib for Morgan.

We were in bed when Theres and Kim and Ben and Morgan arrived after visiting Penny and Scott their daughter Laela and Ron's dad; grandpa Ateah. At 80 years of age he has decided to get to know his family and share some of the stories of Scott and Ron growing up.

We love being grandparents and grandparents and love it when the children keep in touch.

Dad and I have just returned from his radiation, buying a presnt for Mary, and now we are both going to rest. Everything I try to type is coming out wrong so time for a rest.

I had a dream

I had a dream that Sandra; the daughter who does not look like me so she has been told, phoned to say we had to go to church in our pyjamies. No I told her that can't be right. Don't worry she said I have some nice new pyjamas you can wear. Just then Larry woke me up to turn on the T.V. to watch the Olmypics. I will never know what I would have done.

By the way I am sure Dr. Laura says you should not have a T.V. in the bedroom.

Late at night, at nine oclock, if I am watching T.V. I fall asleep. Last night we watched a video which I am sure I had never seen before but Larry says we did. I find that disconcerting. Our memories are so important and I know I should be doing crossword puzzles like Randy to keep my brain working. I quess I should start with really simple ones and then I would feel smart.

I look at baby Matthew and think of all the things he has to learn. Children seem so much brighter today it is really amazing. As we get older we learn to hide our feelings and not burst into tears like little Morgan. Instead we become annoyed or angry.

I believe the anger that drives us to take action can be helpful; so we can use the negative emotions and allow good to help us overcome.

I am amazed at the way the Chinese seem able to move as one. They have mastered the art of synchronizing. I think that this relates to the spiritual world in the way we learn to tune into one another. Prayer is the heart reaching out in love and compassion as we take time to feel how some one else is feeling. There are some days when one person keeps coming to my mind and later I may find out why.

Dreams are an important part of who we are. Sometimes they are funny and other times they give us a message.

Children often have bad dreams that frighten them. My worse dream was being eaten by a huge tiger. I am sure I had some happy dreams but do not seem to remember them.

I think I hear snoring from the bedroom and the T.V. is off. But my dreaming is fineshed for now.

Searching for inner beauty

Why do we all want to look good? We all want to be reasonably attractive but we all have our blemishes and imperfections. I have found that as I visit the elderly, who have often lost outward beauty, they are interesting people who love to share their lives, their emotions often anger and frustration. They are more open and honest and we need to put our fears aside if we are going to be present with them.

How would I feel if I had to face disfigurment? Larry has growth on his lip of which he is constantly being reminded of; especially when he goes to eat or drink. He desperately wants to begin treatment, whether it be radiation, kemo or surgery. The nurse say they can do the radiation but he has to wait for all the forms to be filled and faxed and filled.

Waiting for treatment knowing it should have been done earlier as it continues to get worse is causing him anger and frustration. I thought things were better than they were.

"I turn to religion [for me that means prayer] in particular because it is with religous language that human beings have most consistently, rigorously and powerfully explored the harrowing business of rescuing joy from hearbreak." Phillip Simmons "Learning to Fall"

Maybe another word for fall would be learning to surrender and trust that things will work out. Meanwhile we are responsible to do all we can.

We all could mourn over what could or should have been but it is more important is to discover what is really important in life. We are learning to love and appreciatte the goodness that is our inner strength and turn to God for help and courage.

We do not meet God in outer space; we meet Him in the inner space.

We had a very close call when we were driving when a speeding car veered over into our lane. In a minute we could have been badly hurt or even killed. I believe that God still has plans for us all and we will leave this world when it is our time.

So I advise you to wear sun screen protection on your lips and this could protect you from having lip cancer.