Searching for inner beauty

Why do we all want to look good? We all want to be reasonably attractive but we all have our blemishes and imperfections. I have found that as I visit the elderly, who have often lost outward beauty, they are interesting people who love to share their lives, their emotions often anger and frustration. They are more open and honest and we need to put our fears aside if we are going to be present with them.

How would I feel if I had to face disfigurment? Larry has growth on his lip of which he is constantly being reminded of; especially when he goes to eat or drink. He desperately wants to begin treatment, whether it be radiation, kemo or surgery. The nurse say they can do the radiation but he has to wait for all the forms to be filled and faxed and filled.

Waiting for treatment knowing it should have been done earlier as it continues to get worse is causing him anger and frustration. I thought things were better than they were.

"I turn to religion [for me that means prayer] in particular because it is with religous language that human beings have most consistently, rigorously and powerfully explored the harrowing business of rescuing joy from hearbreak." Phillip Simmons "Learning to Fall"

Maybe another word for fall would be learning to surrender and trust that things will work out. Meanwhile we are responsible to do all we can.

We all could mourn over what could or should have been but it is more important is to discover what is really important in life. We are learning to love and appreciatte the goodness that is our inner strength and turn to God for help and courage.

We do not meet God in outer space; we meet Him in the inner space.

We had a very close call when we were driving when a speeding car veered over into our lane. In a minute we could have been badly hurt or even killed. I believe that God still has plans for us all and we will leave this world when it is our time.

So I advise you to wear sun screen protection on your lips and this could protect you from having lip cancer.