I need to be reminded to check if my lens is clean.
I grew up in a different time with different values. Tidy and clean. Do not express your feelings. My brother rebelled I did not. I had to learn some difficult lessons about life.
I was naive thinking that people are basically good
No one wants to hurt you
The use of force was wrong.
I still like to think the best of people.
I realize now that because I was naive I was a perfect victim to be abused.
This has caused me to feel a great amount of anger
remembering this trauma. And grief was expressed as anger.
Anger can be a good emotion but it can frighten you also.
There is good and bad in all our hearts.
Speak your mind and demand respect.
I am finding a new role that is freeing me from the past.
"What once seem such a curse has become a blessing.
All the agony that threatened to destroy my life
now seems like fertile ground
for greater trust and truth, stronger hope and love!
Henri H Nouven
2 comments:
That is interesting that you say you are finding a new role, you will have to elaborate on that.
I am playing cat midwife till I get too tired and go to bed. I can relax because every time I come into the room she is on the bed rather than in the closet where she should be.
Sandra
Yes my new role is being more assertive
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Asking for help more.
Sharing feelings more.
Love mom
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