NIGHTMARE

Some dreams are so real they are hard to forget.

    I was not sure if I was dreaming my shoulder hurt or if it was really hurting. 

         I could not get comfortable and was thinking of  getting up but did not want to worry dad.

Maybe overdid some work in the garden but it is good to see it looking better.
Also it is hard to remember if you dreamed something or it really happened.
 

On the morning after the death of Jesus did the disciples who had scattered and left him think it was all a bad dream?  a nightmare? Ashamed of there cowardliness?  Confused and scared.

 

 The streets were very quiet as I walk seeing the dawn of a new day.  I met a homeless person looking for cans and bottles.  I helped him for a few minutes and he said to me I just do this to clean up the mess not because if need money.  I laughed and said "me too"  I do not know what had brought his life to a place of hunger and poverty but Jesus said we are to help the poor.

 

 The Crucifixion is Jesus saying "I care  for you who are hurting"  He has felt the pain of us all.

There is salvation when we wake from our nightmare and realize a new day waits for us. 
There is salvation when we wake up and discover "He Is Risen!"

Can you see the butterfly in the picture?

Saturday turned out to be an ordinary day with Sandra and Randy coming by first thing to take our old mattress to the dump.  Dad and I had been thinking about how to do it.  Dad was busy working on the patio,such a pretty place to sit with the little stream and flowers and trees.  Carol and Panteli dropped by to have a look and enjoy trying out the new patio floor.  I was out shopping and managed to get goodies for Easter.

Imagine hunting Easter eggs in the snow!  Maybe making snow eggs instead.
 Happy Easter Nancy-Lou
Happy Easter to you all!

A RADICAL

"If someone is inspired, which means life has been breathed into them, then somebody else had life breathed out of them." -Rob Bell      The  radical love of Jesus.

 

We gathered on Good Friday to remember the life of a radical reformer named Jesus.

 

He started his ministry by declaring

 "The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.

   He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind,

   to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."

 

He was accused of speaking blasphemy by telling and well fed the sick man his sins were forgiven.  Only God can do that the Pharisees and teachers of the law declared.

 

He healed the shriveled hand of a man on the Sabbath and declared what is lawful on the Sabbath to do good or to do evil?

 

He spoke against the rich, the well fed, the abusers and users, those with evil intentions in their hearts.  Luke 6.

 

He warned his followers must deny themselves and be willing to take up the cross.

 

He welcome prostitutes and tax collectors and called the Pharisees and Sadducee's alse leaders and teachers. and thus condemned himself to die.

 

This was the man we were remembering;  who had not only touched the lives of those in the scriptures but had also changed the lives of those present in the service.  His life an inspiration!

 

A very meaningful service and dad and I were impressed.  There was no heavy guilt trip although there was forgiveness.

 

After church Carol came over and helped me in the garden and I feel we got a lot done.   Sandra has always been a good help too.  She phoned to confirm about Sunday lunch.  A barbecue at ?

THE PUZZLE

It is much easier to do gardening when one has some one to do the digging.  Lots of fun getting dirty and thankful I do not have to do any studying.  The weather is amazing and I want to enjoy being out as much as I can.

 

I will never forget the first June I had to write the finals and most of the other kids were on holidays all ready.  It only happened once.

Dad has nearly finished his big project out on our little patio.  I will take a picture to-morrow.  I was very thankful I visited Jim because he was feeling very down and very happy to see me.  He had spent the night in the hospital and so appreciated the milk shake and a visit.  He is puzzled over his state of health which has gotten so poor.

 

Life can seem like a puzzle sometimes.  Even when you seem to have it all together you realize there may be pieces missing, and trying to put it together again can be frustration.  The last thing anyone needs to the answer of suffering is some neat answer.  A silent presence is helpful. 

 

Easter  for Christians  is also a time to accept that suffering is a part of the puzzle.

Through the agonizing death of one son;   God became a father to many!

There is a church service this morning because it is Good Friday.   It usually is a very deeply moving service that is acted out and makes the words of scripture come alive!

                                             New Life!  A New Dawn with birds singing.

TRAILBLAZERS

Be a trail blazer!  To choose one's attitude in any given circumstances, is to choose one's own way.   Victor Frankl

 

 

Some of the trails in the forest are very difficult to follow and it is more of an adventure if you wander off the main trails and feel like you are blazing the way into an unexplored part of the woods.

 

I suppose each one of us is a trailblazer in our own ways.  Bringing new life into the world is certainly one way and discovering the potential that we each possess to make life an adventure is another.

 

Jesus was calling his followers to become more than followers but to be trailblazers of a new and deeper way of seeing the majesty and mystery of God and the powerful influence He has to intoxicate life with fresh insight.  Religion is now breaking out of the mold of the theological definitions of the past.  It is hard for me to break out of that mold.

 

It has taken centuries of study and research to translate  the words of Jesus that redefine what it means to be human.  We are limited by our own experiences and understandings and our inability to put them into words.

 

Wed. was my Bible study day and our group delights at looking for answers in new ways; but we all struggle to put words to exactly what and how we believe.  Yesterday we shared how difficult it can be to share your faith.  I am fortunate I can do it through this blog which I hope will help people think and make up their own minds.           

 

We were pleased to have Cathy from across the street drop by because we were concerned about their dog Murphy.  Jeff has been walking alone and we were fearing the worse.  It seems Murphy had an operation on his leg so has not been able to walk but he is recovering well.

 

Dad had a busy day getting bags of dirt and compost and new flooring for the patio.  It is good to have things to do, and there are a lot of things needing fixing around the house.  I have some running around to do today so glad I can be driving again!

WARNINGS ABOUT CHOICES

Dad and I have decided to stay here for the summer and maybe longer.  If we need help we will get it.

        
Dad and I had a very productive day cleaning out the garage and cutting the lawn.

It was a lovely warm day to have our lunch on the porch  and watching the young people coming and going all decked out for the hockey game. The younger boys got their net out to play road hockey.  We find lots on their balls hiding in our front garden; yes we do return them. 

I am doing much better.

 

I was thinking about when you have children you try to teach them what is important in life and also warn them about dangers.  Reading about Jesus after Psalm Sunday I think he realizes he has taught his followers all he can and now tries to warn them about what the future holds. He is warning them if they continue to follow him it will not be an easy path.   He also warns them to expect persecution and arrest, but promises to be with them through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Jesus was warning them that bad things can happen to good people and he is a perfect example.  Jesus warns but also promises.

 

When you believe something passionately it becomes more than a mind game it becomes a gut feeling that all of life has meaning and purpose.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

LIFE STYLE

   

There needs to be some changes in our lifestyle whether we move or whether we stay here, but especially if we move.

 

Yes, Mary would love us to move there and she enjoys walking too so I would have a partner.  We would miss our neighborhood here and being able to sit out front and enjoy watching the people and getting to know them.  We even like hearing the cars going in the early morning because we have got use noise outside our window, whether it is cars or people walking by.  We are happy here and just may need some extra help.

 

I wonder if we would have enough to do.  Of course they have lots of activities, like coffee mornings, special meals, pub night, yoga and games room.  Plus there is the swimming pool.  So no matter where are path in life takes us it can be an adventure.

 

Dad and I have to get busy and clean out more junk.  We have junk day in April and also April 20 there is the big yard sale at the church.  I have been doing a little in the yard and being out in the sunshine and warmth is sure nice.  I have been reading about roses and was surprised that you should fertilize beginning in March and by April little critters will be enjoying eating the plants.  May is  the time when they need the most fertilizing.  Then in June there is a second growth  cycle.  Etc.

 

Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns (me)

I am thankful that thorns have roses.  -Alphonse

 

We have several people to contact about renovations and we need to get cracking on some of the things we can do ourselves.  Dad had a walk today as I did with Gundy but it was still cold when I went on my little hike.

 

Even the  disciples of Jesus thrilled with his triumphant ride into Jerusalum will soon find out that the lifestyle, their hopes are glory are not going to be free of suffering and struggle.  They had changed their lifestyle once while Jesus was with them and would do it after he left them.

 

SUNSHINE

Woke up Sat. morning to frost on the ground but a lot better than the snow they are having in other places, like Edmonton for one.

When Dad and I went for a walk in the forest last week the sunshine found him in his favorite place under that silly tree.    Right now there are a lot of dead branches and trees blown across the path.  The kids on their bikes are making a lot of extra paths and taking away a bit of the charm.  It still is a wonderful place to walk and even meet dogs taking their owners for a walk. 

 

Laughter does not depend on the weather or the season but is good for us all any tine of the day or the year.  I understand it is even legal to drive and to laugh as long as you keep your eyes on the road.  I do hope that we never lose our sense of humor, even as we are losing our memories.

 

Laughter is sunshine for the soul!

 

Psalm Sunday was a lovely sunny day to begin the final days before Easter.  A time to remember that Jesus rode a small donkey or colt into Jerusalem and was surrounded by a crowd of happy excited people praising the man who they expected to save them from the bondage of Rome.  Christians everywhere will be celebrating and rejoicing on this special day.  Jesus threatened those in power and was risking his life to defeat evil and corruption, that included not only the Roman authority but their own Jewish hierarchy. 

 

After church we drove around Chelsea Gardens again and then walked around to drop by and see Mary Brooks.  She was so happy to see us and our visit was a happy one.  Later we took her out for supper and arrived home as the sun was setting.

We can laugh in the sunshine and in the rain and in the snow and it does us good.
We can laugh with old friends as long ago memories come to mind.
We can laugh with a God who promises to be with us all.
We can laugh with Jesus who juggles all of life as only he can do.

A GOOD FOR NOTHING

Being a good for nothing bum seems to be paying off.

I felt good enough to go for a walk in the forest with dad on Sat. after resting all Friday.

Turned out to be a very good day as Carol and Panteli came over and brought supper and Sandra was able to joined us as she was taking a break from her studies.  The company did us both good. 

We also looked at a place in Chelsae Gardens that is for sale which we all liked but I have to think it over for a day or so.  Moving is a big step and there are pluses and minus to it all.

My shoulder is still painful but improving.  Dad says I would not make a good hockey player!  But I am getting a little too old for it anyway.

Dad and I will go to church this morning.

THE PRESENT

Taking time to just enjoy the quiet beauty of the wind causing ripples on the pond was good;
 even if it was using my imagination.

Having quiet day in bed being looked after by dad was good.

Dad finished his taxes and went for walk and changed the bed,  All good.

I am practicing being present in the moment.

God is in the present moment.

PILLOW WALK

The grass is green but it is cold out.

 

I go for my early morning walk after wiggling and jiggling into my clothes, stepping into them and pulling them up, as it hurts too much to try to put anything over my head.  I am walking now holding a small pillow close to my upper chest as it helps absorbs the jolts of the walk.  I had only one strange look.  I was thinking how we often need something to cushion the aches and weariness of everyday living, as I was walking.    Often it is the little acts of kindness that mean so much.  There is an old Celtic saying that heaven and earth are only three feet apart, and there are "thin places" where this distance closes, a transformed awareness of peace and joy comes over one.  Every expression of beauty, every selfless act, every true friendship, every prayer from the heart, every good deed allow this to happen.

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Dad is doing his income tax.  My computer is losing everything and since typing is also a pain, it is very annoying.   I wish I could type with my toes.  I went over to get my hair cut and will not be visiting the Seniors home as driving is out.  I feel bad about that.

 

I am thankful for the sunshine and several good books to read.  I decide to dump the guilt trip that keeps haunting me telling me I should be doing things, not just being so lazy.  I have to believe that rest is healing and so this is what I should be doing at this time.  I am not doing very well with this but love the comments. 

 

Dad and I go for a walk in the forest and it does us both good. 

WAITING

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Wed. waiting for sunshine to come back

And after a short walk in the pouring rain it did!

Dad started to do his income tax which he has been wanting to do.

It was decided that we would meet Jane and Geof for lunch at the Boston Pizza when the day looked so miserable.  Jane and I were both a little frustrated, her because her knee surgery was cancelled and me because I was limited to chasing the dust so noticeable in the sunshine. and doing a few odd jobs.  We found a nice quiet booth and had a good visit.  Afterwards we looked at the new apartments for sale on 64.  Too small and too modern.  By the time we got home a cold wind chased us up the driveway and the rain started again.

So we are still waiting for spring.

We cannot wait for there to be a mutual respect and cooperation between the different religions but be willing to learn more and recognize bigotry and intolerance when we come across it.  Certainly I would agree that Christians do not have a monopoly on God.  We are called to be bothers and sisters of one Creator  Humanity runs deeper and wider than any religion.

 My first commitment, like the Dalai Lama says is as a human being. like all others,   We all experience pain and suffering, love and happiness,  we all have to learn to love and care for each other.  I have to learn to be patient and wait for healing.   

 

"God is greater than any one's understanding or interpretation."

 

We all our waiting for reconciliation and peace.

 

DETERMINED

Yes these are from my garden.
I think it would be a brilliant idea to wake up each morning determined to have a good time that day.
 More often that not I am guilty of thinking what I need to do and how I will get it done.  Half way throughout the day I ask myself are you having any fun yet?  Time to read the comics.

If one were to look at a picture of Jesus hanging on the cross in agony or a picture of the fat Laughing Buddha which one would you think was going to bring happiness and joyous spontaneousness into your life.?  For me it is Jesus!  Yes there is a joy in His Presence!

We like being with people who like having fun because hearing laughter and a giggle or two is a delight.  I believe that Jesus liked to laugh and have a good time.  He enjoyed being with people of all ages and at all times.  I believe that I can experience God in times of abundant joy and in times of great distress.

Jesus was offering us new life that demands justice and freedom for all.    To live in the light of unconditional love helps me to be determined to make the best of my life.

"There is a time for us to face up to what is over in our lives. . . ..and quit making old ideas fit new situations."  Joan Chittister

I start with an idea and end up with more questions.  Dad had a longer walk than I did today because he was determined to make an effort.  He also did some shopping for us coming home with lots of good stuff from the Deli!


Mother and daughter enjoy a fun moment together.

They made it a fun week-end for us all!

Varitiy

   
Each time is special, whether it was becoming a mother or a grandmother or now great grandmother.  There is the time of waiting and expectation and our world has never been the same since.

These little ones who steal your heart come in a variety of personalities and each with their own potential.  They remind me of the most important things in life, like laughing, skipping, ice cream and cookies, running and jumping and especially whispering special secrets.  Each one brings joy to an mother's heart and a grandmother's heart and also a grannie heart/

I am waiting with great expectation for our newest arrivals.

I am thankful that as a grandmother I can be as silly and spontaneous as I feel like.  There will always be a small child within us that loves to laugh and sing and dance and colour
I  am doing a little  better and I am sure it is because of all the love and caring I have and will have sent my way,   Dad and I will surely miss Mary!

We went our for hamburgers yesterday, mine without the bun. 

"This world is not a conclusion, a sequel stands beyond-invisible as music, but positive as sound."
-Emily Dickinson  Life carries on!

What a great variety.  Flowers, puppies and balloons!

AWAKE

Wake up I tell myself and See all the beauty in nature, in music, in art and all of life.   I have fond memories of our walk in the park with Mary and Ryley.  Mary is off home to Kirchner at noon today.  Yes, Ryley the dog is leaving to.

There is something about an early walk in the park  or just my walk that helps me to wake up and feel more alive.  It  awakens the soul as well as the body. Monday morning I am determined to walk for a short walk at least.  My shoulder still hurts from my fall and there are things I cannot do, like doing things up at the back or putting something over my head. I am thankful to have a husband!   And getting out of bed is very difficult, and other things we just take so for granted.  Spending time in the emergency with all those much sicker people sure made me aware of all that there is to be thankful for.

Victor Franlk, the Jewish psychotherapist, survived being imprisoned in a Nazis concentration camp.  He tells the story of a group of exhausted men, hungry and despairing, being called outside the barracks to see a bit of sunlight breaking through lumpy, leaden clouds and reflecting on little pools of water.  "We stood there marvelling at the goodness of creation.  We were tired and cold and sick.  We had lost our loved ones and starving to death but the feeling of reverence as old as the world itself captured our hearts and instead of sleepwalking found within themselves a source of joy and beauty that kept their spirits alive."

Sat. I awoke feeling good and did go for a short walk.  Came home and was putting my boots in the garage when I went tumbling down the two stairs after them, hitting my head and my shoulder and my foot on the cement.  Very painful.

I took some Advil after I manged to craw in and up the stairs.  I was determined to go to the party at Mary's house and enjoyed being with all the family and listening and seeing each one of them.  that for me is happiness.

The American writer and theologian Fredrick Buechner writes, "Listen to your life.  See it for the bottomless mystery that it is.  In the boredom and pain of it, no less than in the excitment and gladness, taste and smell your way to the holy and hidden heart of it, because in the last analysis all moments are key moments, and life itself is grace."

David Tomlinson writes that the kingdom of God is profound wakefulness. 

HAPPY ST. PATRICK’S DAY!

Not the happiest one we have had so far.  We drove to first one emergency to another.  The sky was clear and the mountains spectacular so high above with snow gleaming on top.  Too bad to spend such a glorious day in a dingy waiting room.  Nearly four hours to get told I was going for an x-ray of my shoulder and then an hour to hear the results.  Which we did not hear as we had planned to meet Sandra, Randy and Mary and Carol and Panteli at the White Spot for lunch. 

They were already there so we continued on home and dad made us an omelet and toast.

They all stopped in for a visit after so that made the day not completely wasted.

My shoulder is painful but not broken I am sure.

GOOD FUN

     
    
A lot of very hard work for Sandra and her partners in crime Suki and Randy.
Lots of decorations and fabulous food including huge cinnamon buns and gluten-free
bunny cookies, lots of salads with quiche and salads. etc.

And it so happened that the boys won all the games!

Ryley was a star attraction as he kept trying to eat everything from a plastic egg to cookies.

I did a dumb thing before going which was taking a nose dive down the two steps into the
garage and landing on my head and shoulder.  I do not recommend battling with cement as
it sure hurts.  I will be sore for a few days and nights.  Live and Learn. 

THE BRAIN

Religion and spiritual intelligance should go together but too often they don't.

"Spiritual intelligence allows people to be creative, to explore new possibilities, to change the rules and alter situations, while religion is frequently associated with a rigid statuesque , with formality, narrow mindedness and traditionalism."  -Dave Tomlinson

 

The dark part is "God" that I acknowledge is something greater than myself.   Neurological research has discovered this new part of the brain, actually hard-wired into us.  This is a neutral mass dedicated to ask the fundamental questions about the meaning of our existence and the search for answers.  Spiritual intelligence.

 

"Spiritual intelligence has no necessary connection with religion and operates quite independently of religious beliefs, though it has massive bearing on how we interpret our beliefs.  There is logical intelligence, multiple intelligences like linguistic, musical, or physical intelligence.  Added to that by Daniel Goleman in 1990 showed there was emotional intelligence (EQ) which provides awareness of other peoples feelings as well as our own. 

 

IQ remains fairly static but EQ can be cultivated and developed.  Neurological research suggests the brain possess a third basic intelligence and it gives deep meaning, fundamental values and abiding sense of purpose to our lives.  This is called SQ, by Danah Zohar and Ian Marshall leading researchers in this field.  It also can be cultivated and nurtured.  Some channel their spiritual intelligence through a religious tradition, other's don't."

"Spiritual intelligence is thinking with the soul."  -Dave Tomlinson.

I was taught if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all But I now think it may be smarter to believe it is not so much what you say but how you say it.

Anyway after my three walks with myself, with Gundy and with Mary and dad I was feeling a little droopy about going to the St. Patrick Day tea at Colebrook Church.  I am glad dad and I went after all.  Lots of people dressed in green finery and also the tables decorated with shamrocks and little green men.  Lots of fun and happy friends!

 

ADVENTURES

Life is an adventure when grandchildren come for a visit. and we take dog Ryley for a walk.  Sandra takes the pictures as she runs ahead of us.  And yes the plans changed from going to Sandra's house to them coming to ours.  We sat in our sunny living room for a change but the sun refused to shine.

 

The time just flew by and the girls were off to do shopping and I not sure is Ryley was going too and would have to wait in the car. 

I did not know when I walked Haiti if she liked other dogs or not so I was careful to avoid them.
There were lots of dogs at the park as we walked through having a great time playing together.

I treasure the moments that I have with my family also remembering when they were little and the great times we had. 

I tried to cheer Jim up when I went visiting and he surprised me with a hair cut and his beard trimmed too.  He leads a sad and lonely life.

Dad was not up to going for a walk and the rain that started again did not help his enthusiasm.

I did some phoning to try and catch up on some family news but ended up having a long talk to my brother and his wife.  I am amazed at how cheerful Traudel is with all the mix ups they have had to endure.  One doctor not talking to another.  etc.  They will not be driving to Kelowna so that has all been changed.

Looking forward to our family get together lunch on Saturday, also a baby shower.  The secret the men do not know is that we may be playing games.  Lots of fun.

Glad the Canucks did better tonight.

REFUGE

A place of refuge with quiet and gentle people who are caring and understanding.  This is the Hospice training center.

I was leading the study group on the subject of  God as a refuge yesterday.  The Psalms are songs that were written to express what was happening in their lives and also what they felt God was doing.  We discussed growing older and the complications and challenges.  None of us want to be a burden to our families and yet none of us know what the future may bring.  We make a commitment to an inner journey of discovering who we are and who we want to become.  Also lots of laughter over the craziness of getting old.

I think all of us can feel the stress in our lives and need a place of refuge.  Usually when I meditate I think of quiet calm waters but sitting by a fire is also a good place.    A place to find rest for my soul and peace of mind for my  body and mind. 

Prayer for me is a refuge and so is the Word of Scripture which reminds me of ancient truths and experiences.  In Biblical times where they were aware of constant danger refuge meant a safe place to hide.  As I get older and feel my strength failing I remind myself of God's faithfulness and "a growing hope in his life-renewing power".  I will be confident and trusting no matter what happens.

 

"I have taken refuge,  my trust is in you Lord

You will never leave me or forsake me."  -Psalm 71

 

Each of us is living proof of the faithfulness of God and His Indwelling love. 

When my strength fails then if I abide in the love that flows from Jesus, his strength will be mine.

The wealthy take refuge in their millions, the intellectual in their brains, the religious in their righteousness, the athlete in his power and strength, the musician in hitting the right note, the politician in his popularity and authority, the gardener in creating color and beauty,  and each one of us takes refuge in our own choices in what brings us comfort.

After the study I drove ro White Rock in the pouring rain and got home in time for Carol to come and pick up their chair again in the pouring rain.

This morning dad and I have been invited over to Sandra's to have breakfast with her and Mary.

WONDER

The world is full of wonder waiting to be discovered.  I love seeing reflections in the water they are fascinating.

Our minister mentioned that one of the great wonders is that we carry the wonder of God in our souls.

The wonder that we experience in nature is  the same wonder that the Creator reveals in the majestic mountains and the vast oceans and the fresh air.  A cool breeze is a wonderful thing.

I am reminded that there is a time, a season for everything.  A time to be young and wonder at the tiny little bugs or interesting stones and seeing so many new things and asking questions.  A time to be old and wonder at the delight of the young and continue to be young at heart.

Never too old to keep learning.  Dad received a warm welcome at the Hospice and will be starting a course in April.  He will be visiting people in their homes which is very different than we had expected.  I did not have an interview but sat in a very peaceful room with a warm fireplace and shelves of books.  I may get involved later but I am more interested in actual hospice visiting, but for now will continue to visit at the Seniors Home.

 

My day started with a walk in the pouring rain and even with rain pants and a rain jacket I got soaking wet.  It does make your face tingle and it wakes you up.  I saw two police cars but no sirens or other activity.  Now that I think about it there has been less.

 

I am happy that your heat spell has broken Ken, that would be miserable I think.

 

When I was about 6 my brother was taken to the hospital in an ambulance because he was so very sick with the flu.  I thought it was a very exciting and wished it had been me.  I also thought he was very brave.  Brian had his tonsils out soon after and so did I.

 

Now it is Wed. morning and I think it is not raining.  Dad and I are very excited about Mary flying here today  from Kitchener and seeing her soon.  Hope her journey goes well.

Quiet

Silence is the element in which great things fashion themselves together. -Thomas Carlyle

Signs of spring coming quietly growing until these beautiful colors catch my  eye.  My morning Monday walk was quieter as there seemed to be less traffic.  I am used to cars honking and speeding by and sounds of sirens going off.  It is a very unusual morning when either an ambulance or a fire truck does not go racing and shrieking down past me.  Not this morning though.  I am glad there are people to help those who are suffering and in need.

 

"The purpose of all major religions is (should be) not to construct big temples on the outside, but to create temples of goodness and compassion inside our hearts."  -The Dalai Lama

 

Many are praying as the Catholic Church votes to elect the new Pope.  Many are hoping there will be changes that are more compassionate and freeing; as they are willing to see the gravity of the abuse that the church has refused to address and bring people back to Jesus.  His message was always about love; first of all to love God with all your heart, soul and mind, the second is to love your neighbor as yourself.  We may be called to love the unlovable who we may not like very much and this is hard work.

 

Some ways each one of us can love God

"we relish our many human gifts and live live with gratitude,

we fill our lungs with fresh air and feel glad to be alive,

we enjoy and care for God's creation,

we live fully in the present moment, perhaps appreciating details of life we mostly take for granted,

we forgive a wrong done against us,

we take action to make the world a fairer (more peaceful) place.

we share what we have with those less fortunate."   -Dave Tomlinson

 

Dad had a good day walking in the woods and doing some shopping, while I cleaned up at home.  He is going to an interview at the Hospice in Delta today so we will know more about what is entailed there.   Yes the garage door is happily opening and closing.
 

One thing I do like about my front garden is I get to talk to my neighbors walking by. 

 

 

 

PENNIES

Oh oh caught in the act of sleeping on the bed!  Sunday morning Haiti and I had a nice walk together as it was very quiet and we did not meet anyone.  Haiti is afraid of people and so care has to be taken if she meets strangers; which she did when we had gone out and Randy and Sandra and James came in the house and she barked up a storm. 

The penny is now abolished and as one who has collected pennies over the years it is sad.  It is amazing how a penny or two has saved the day.  Now if you owe 42 cents you either pay 40 cents or 45 cents,  as pennies are not being accepted.

So no more penny for your thoughts or pennies ending up at the bottom of a wishing well; as they are thrown in with a wish.  What about all those pennies flattened by the train when they are put on the tracks.  We had a penny on the floor and no one could be bothered to pick it up until I felt sorry for it.
And what would a bride put in her shoe for good luck?  Or do they do that any more?

And most important pennies are the most religious of coins showing up at church more often than other coins.  I have this on good authority.

"If it's a penny for your thoughts and you put in your two cents worth, then someone somewhere is making a penny."   Steven Wright.

So are you in for a penny or in for a pound? 

DECISION

My breath was visible in the cold chilly morning and I am thankful for the extra sweater that I put on.  Later the sun came out and the urge to do some gardening took a hold of me.

I decide Sat. I would tackle purning the roses but found that it was a bigger job than I had expected.  Nor is it something I do for fun but it is a warm day and feeling the sunshine on my face is good.  I work and then I rest and then do a bit more.  There was still some chicken soup left for supper so that was one decision I did not have to make.

Carol and Panteli are moving into their very sparse apartment to-morrow if their bed is delivered.  The house will seem very quiet when they leave especially no Haiti running up and down the stairs and then watching every mouthful we eat.  It is very hard not to feed her but Kim wants her to have good dogie manners.  Yes, the dog will be leaving with them.  we have enjoyed having her.

Deciding what to do daily is a pretty easy task but deciding what you believe about God can be more challenging.  Many people have influence me until it was time to make it my own decision.

Looking at the Ten Commandments with the influence of the Hebrew words can bring a whole new light onto the subject.  The first command is to have no other gods before the Lord Your God which when looked at as "I am the One who is and will always be your God, who has helped you in the past and who cares about your freedom"  allows for me to connect with a higher consciousness.  This makes the decision easier knowing that Someone is there when I need them.  There is meaning and purpose in life that can be fulfilling when we learn to respect and love ourselves (having a day of rest) and respecting others. 

I have found that there is a connection between psychological healing and spiritual healing that can set us free from negative attitudes and understanding your own gifts and using them.  If I connect to this profoundly Joyful Being I will manage to unhook from everyday pressures.  I learn that there are ways to treat others, like your parent, or any relationship treating others as equal.  It is important not to steal from others or covet what they have but find contentment in what you have. 

Using practical wisdom that applies to everyday life is meant to guide us with internal strength  not to control us or drive us to be perfect.  We all know there is a time to speak and a time to be silent.

We have one clock which is already an hour ahead so does not need to be changed so just need to adjust myself to the time change.

HILARIOUS

                                   Grannie and Ben share a laugh after his concert.

I was thinking how hilarious it is that here I am going to visit an x hell's angel.  Me, who is like a mild mannered Clark Kent,  that never  changes into a super hero and is afraid to even ride a motor-bike.  I think I see God winking and laughing too.  Faith in the goodness of God brings joy to our lives and a new sense of adventure.  Challenges will arise but our faith can help keep us strong..

So the movers and shakers, Carol and Panteli, got an early start to move boxes and book-cases into their apartment.  This required several trips back and forth.

Meanwhile dad and I set out to the store in White Rock and mysteriously missed the turn.  At least we had picked up some garden stuff which kept me busy until it was time for Haidi to have a walk.  Putting on a dog harness may not be rocket science but dad and I had a difficult time, yes we laughed at the different ways that did not work.  It was hilarious!

 

Dad was inspired by watching a humorous video of a man fixing a garage door, so went down to tackle it again.  He was successful in putting one spring on and loosening the other.

 

It is good to be able to enjoy life and they say even as you get older you may loose your hair or your shape but never your sense of humor!

 

I am thankful not to be writing a test today.  Good luck Sandra!

ADVERSITY

One person who knew a lot about adversity was Stompin Tom Connors.
He lived hand to mouth as a youngster begging on the streets from the age of 4.  He bought his first guitar at the age of 14 and picked up odd jibs as he wandered from town to town writing songs along the way.

:It has been a hard bumpy road but this great country kept me inspired with its beauty, character and spirit driving me to keep marching on and devoted to sing about its people and places."  -The Sun

He did so much to bring happiness to so many and he will be missed.

Thursday was a more productive day for us here sheltered from the rain and cold.  Dad did some work on the garage door, Panteli picked up some boxes and he and Carol took them to the apartment in the evening.  I went visiting at the Seniors Home and dad visited his cousin Eileen and they talked about family history.  Yes there have been some wild crazy things done in our families past.

Inside every adversity lies opportunity but not always in plain sight and sometimes only found by looking back.  I may not know where I am going but I know I am not alone.  God is here right now, in whatever adversity is in our path, and his energy keeps renewing us daily. 

The message from the cross is not one to make us feel guilty
 but Jesus revealing his compassion for all who suffer.  He understands and he is listening.

Comfort may not be a part of the plan for us but the grace dignity and an awareness of our own resilience may be!

WHERE?

On our quiet drive to Chilliwack the mountain were majestic in their beauty even in the dullness of the day.  The sun is bravely trying to shine.

Our trip there and back went very smoothly and we were especially happy when the road crew where working on the other lane so we were not stopped.

We got to the school and found out the play was not there and we had to ask where is it then?

As the teacher we believe happened to be there at the empty school we had to start from a familiar place before we knew where we were to go.  If we were to search for what is called God we would have to start right where we are and knowing who we are. 

I trust and I believe that somewhere the Great Something is listening and will respomd to the inner desire of my heart.  A step at a time so that even when we feel lost or are actually lost there will be guidance; enough to help us go forward.  I know that on my walks I am able to connect.  Also when I sit down to write I feel a clarity by putting things down.  One thing I try to do is when I think of some one I will get in touch or pray for them.  I trust that God is available at all times.

I know that some will think I am guible or naive but I am not afraid of believing that there is an answer to all the bad news we hear every day.  I want to move toward harmony in my own life and not get tangled in worry.  It is harder to trust when the future will be a time of suffering, which no one wants or are really prepared for.  Lent, the time before Easter, is a time to reflect on our sufferings and on the suffering of Jesus.  Why me Lord?  Why You Lord?

Wed. dad and I were content to have a quiet day.  I had not slept that well wanting to say good-bye to Kim at 3:30 in the morning.  I did work on putting on my pictures and was very please to have a visit with Jane at the coffee shop.  Where was the place that was good for both of us.  We have missed our coffee mornings at Zeller's.

 

I have to remind myself it is Thrusday, visiting day today.

"Faith is a decision.  We then reach out for conscious contact."  -Julia Cameron

SISTERS

Dad and I set out early to  drive to Chilliwack to see Ben perform in the play "The Little Mermaid".
We thought it was at the school and then after we arrived at the Art Center realized we had no tickets.
The principal gave us two tickets to sit with the kindergarten kids.  Ben played his role as the handsome prince very well and the whole production was excellent the costumes very colorful.  We were very proud of Ben singing and acting and dancing.  A wonderful afternoon.  We thought we may see Kim as she had been there putting on make-up, but she had already left. 

Somehow dad and I ended up coming out of the back door of the stage to a burst of applause, not for us but for the director.  All the children were now the audience.  We were trying to connect with Ben not sure what the plan was for getting him home.  Very embarrassing.

We drove over to Theresa's house after to meet Haiti the dog and have coffee with the girls.  A short visit  but Kim was busy getting ready to fly out to Peru to be involved in helping children in an afternoon project.  Yes, she is off on another adventure!  We will miss her bright spirit!

We left about 4 and arrived home just as it started to rain.  Carol and Panteli, and Chuch and Ron and I think Nicole were joining Theresa and Mikie and Morgan all going to the evenning performance. 

It is wonderful to be able to be involved in the lives of our family.  One of the secrets of growing older I believe is to not be too rigid but to bend with the wind of change.

Change your thoughts and you change your world!     --Norman Vincent Peale

Flowers

Beautiful flowers to brighten up out home and give it a spring like feeling.  Thank you Carol and Panteli.  They are off having a busy day with many chores to do and things to organize.  Updated their licenses yesterday and bought a bed on Sunday.  They have furniture that will be arriving and other stuff they have to pick up from storage.

Dad and I will be going to Ben's play in Chilliwack and we are very excited about that as he has a main part and is actually singing.  Kim and dog will return with us.  Dad's feet are giving him a lot of pain so that is discouraging as it has been a long time since he felt like himself.

Had a good time at the Green Lettuce as we have not been there for a long time.  Jeff was pleased to see us all.  It was a real treat from Panteli.


Bumping into God happens when we see beauty in all things.  Nature is especially inspirational.

Last Sunday night as we were waiting  for the opportunity to move our car and head for home.  I looked up at the sky and all the stars were shining as bright as could be.  The sky and the ocean give me a feeling of the vastness of this world we live in.  Life can be full of God moments  when our soul is touched by the spiritual dimension that is the grace of God.  I am watching the birds fly above my head on my morning walks now.  Yesterday as dad and I sat on the porch in the sunshine we think we saw a red-tailed hawk.

I am so thankful for the gift of faith that allows me to see light shining through the ordinary and where a conversation becomes significant as a friend takes time to listen.

I believe in a God not as portrayed in the Old Testament. 

Most people are influenced by other people and the examples they see in their lives.

"In order to work with God, we must assume that God can start any time and any place where ever we are.  God is not waiting to rendezvous with us once we have earned the right to his attention.

God is Waiting for us right now, just where we are." -Julia Cameron.

OVERIDENTIFICATION

A lovely sunny day.  So good having Carol attend church with me.  Dad was still not able to leave the security of home and bathroom.  Thankful to drive to Sandra and Randy's for a delicious supper.

Overidentification is believing that you are totally in the right and the other or others are totally wrong.    The challenge is to find a peaceful way of discussing and respecting the opinions of others. Expressing what you believe is important but also being aware that your words are causing pain and wounding the soul of another is very important.  We all have overidentification problems!

 

Even with loving family members there will always be healthy differences.  I am being reminded that I talk to loud on the phone and I do not take criticism well.  So true.  I will try to over come this.

 

There is a healthy balance if while we remain true to ourselves we can be open to others.

 

In traditional Judaism, the book of Leviticus says:  do not curse a deaf person. which later rabbis explained to mean that the gift of speech is for blessing and uplifting our lives, not for degrading ourselves or other people.  Even if a deaf person can't hear the hurtful words, the basic misuse of our own gifts is wrong.  Employing our minds and our intelligence not to prove what is right but to heal is a way we can encourage one another.

Our church is built on a foundation and a belief in prayer that flows from thankful hearts that flow from the heart.  The Jewish prayer Sh'ma Yisroel Eloheynu Adonai Ekhad is a prayer from the heart that is saying:  Listen, wake up you who seek to understand and connect with God, Adonai, the Eternal One who has been present since the beginning of time and who expresses Love and Wisdom by entering our hearts and to create energy and unity with all things.

My prayer is that I can develop a deeper connection to this loving energy day by day, prayer by prayer.  For me scripture has a depth of meaning that actually transcends words.

MORNING

Kim and dog Haiti are recovering after a long journey to Theresa and Mikie's.
Happy Birthday Mikie!

Plans are up in the air for today but I plan to go to church and supper I believe is going to be at Sandra and Randy's.  We really want to see Kim but a long drive to Chilliwack and not sure if dad feels up to it.

I have read that the morning ritual can be the most crucial in making the day a lot more purposeful and satisfying.  I never knew that Tai Chi Chaun is an ancient body movement ritual that is soft flowing movements that shift the energy in the body, mind and breath into a harmonious state.  Yoga is another way to awaken your spirit each morning with great aliveness and focus. 

"In Hinduism the word Yoga literally meanings to harness oneself to God, seeking union with the divine."  I like to do my walking and praying to remind myself that I need to grow and learn each day and especially not to harm anyone.

My morning walk helps me to breath in fresh air and a fresh sense of purpose enjoying nature and the wonder of being alive and well.  I sometimes go over what happened the day before especially times when I felt insecure or angry or self-righteous.

"If you want to find out how well you are living up to your spiritual values look at how you react in times of disagreement and frustration."   Rabbi Mordecai Finley

Dad was very pleased that Randy came over to hep[ take the spring off the top of the door, especially since he was not feeling so good.  I cleaned out cupboards to see if there was any evidence of mice.

Then we lay on the bed and watched a funny movie together.  I would have loved to go to Chilliwack with Carol and Panteli but it was good we had not gone.  Waited all day until Kim finally called.  Both her and Haiti are recovering from their long trip so that is good news.  They got through the border fine only having to fill out a form.  They arrived at Theresa's at 3 in the morning.

 

All is well that ends well!   Lovely sunny morning!  !