LOST

My new healthy diet does not seem to be helping my brain one little bit. 

I got my book I was reading and my favorite glasses in my hands ready to take up stairs to read in bed.

Checked that the car was locked and the door and turned off my computer and lost both my book and my glasses.  Spent 30 minutes looking, even looked in the frig. and in the cupboard, out in the car, in the laundry and every single room and strange place I could think of.  Couldn't find them.

First thing this morning I start again and finally decided to turn on the computer and my book had fallen down underneath the computer completely out of sight until I moved my chair this morning.  My glasses were not there but they will turn up.  Very unsettling these things are.

The good news is that my friend Gunty lent us some slipper cushion that vibrates and dad can feel it going up to his knees.  I am hopeful but cannot same the same for him.  He also used his vibrating hot foot bath but is feeling very discouraged with the pain in his feet.  Pain and numbness.  I do not know whether some walking is good for him or not although walking in the forest seems to be the less stressful.  There is so much to be done around here and the big job of fixing the fence has to be done this year.  It will be a joint effort with our neighbors.

I m off to the dentist and have some big decisions to make.  Whatever we decide it will cost a lot.

I have quit yoga but may start again.

For now I am going to sit quietly in my big chair, close my eyes, breath deeply to hopefully feel the inner strength of the spirit in the stillness before I pray.  Breathing in calmness and love.

It is so easy to give lip service to God's presence in our lives but so easy to lose that feeling of closeness and oneness!  I know then I am truly lost.

I should be thankful if no one reads this they may get wrong ideas!