MIDDLE AGE

I do not know how it happened but all of a sudden I have left   middle age behind me but that does not mean I am old yeas long as I am young in heart!


  As a mother of young children there were days of delight, exasperation, appreciation and always exhaustion.  In many ways middle age was the golden years free of the busy active years rushing here and there with the children;  then the  anxious teen age years and the  worry of visiting our parents and seeing them fail.  It was also the time when grandchildren came into my life and into my heart. 

Every decade of life has its problems and challenges.  I find that I am more content now than I have ever been and I do not worry near as much about a lot of things.  I want to enjoy smelling the flowers listening to the birds and relaxing reading one book after another and just enjoying being me!

I wrote this before going to bed last night,  Wed. night,which was before I woke up with an extremely bad painful headache.  I got up feeling dizzy and could not type on the computer at all.  I tried to go for a walk even taking my cane but my legs would not work.  I read about what to do when you have smyptons that can be a T.I.A. so off we went to the emergency.  I  had  all the symptoms Which include weakness, trouble speaking, vision problems, extreme bad headache and dizziness.  I really did not want to go.  Time really dragged there and I felt dad should be in the bed not me. 

I had a brain cat scan and a lung x-ray and lots of question, blood tests etc.  I was told I could go home but did not get a report from any doctor which I felt was very annoying so had no answers.  I was told to get hip pads and get walking lessons as I do not walk right.  I was advised to get home help etc. and go to a walking class. What a waste of time!  I felt bad for dad but he did go out for breakfast and over to the little gluten free bakery to buy me goodies.

I had not slept well and should maybe have just gone back to bed.  Oh well dad is happy I went.
T.I.A.s do not show up on scans but I am sure I had one.  Home again by 4 very tired but thankful that all my major organs are fine.  No high blood pressure.  I eat my cookies and grumble all the way home because of not getting any answers.  It took  time before I get over it.

Larry is still in a lot of pain but the pills do help.

"At  this point in time I think of time as a living entity, a gift to each one of us, and one we share with each creature alive with us at this moment.|   -Reeve Lindbregh

I look forward to many happy days ahead for us both.  I will continue to haunt bookstores and libraries! !

So today is a new day and I am off for a great walk in the rain!   Jane and Geof are stopping by for a visit about noon today, too bad it is raining or we could sit outside,

  I will feel the fresh air and feel the joy of a new day.