SHATTERED

It is wonderful when the flame burns bright creating warmth and joy' we all have a light within us.
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   Today I realized that once again I had made a mistake and felt sick about it.  The flame burnt so low it almost went out.

I met my friend Joanne on my early morning walk who always tells the funniest stories even as she struggles with poor health.  The message at church was all about joy.  Joy that is different than happiness, which you have to work at, but it is  moments when you feel an inner joy that can come so unexpectedly and fill your inner soul.
   Joy through living.
Joy through art, or music, or nature.
Joy of giving and receiving.

Pat and John came home from church with us for a little bit to eat and as I was showing them Shawna’s  calendar she had created with all the lovely family pictures, I remembered the pictures Craig had handed to me at the Christmas dinner of their wedding.  I stood  up excited to go and find them;  then I realized I had not brought them home with me.

My joyfulness was completely shattered and I was worried and miserable.  Sandra said some one had found them and she did not know what had happened to them.
I am reminded of my humanness and that I am again reminded not only of my brokenness but of my need of grace and forgiveness.  I was careless and I do not want Craig or Leah to think I did not value and appreciate their pictures they so kindly brought us.

I hope they turn up or they can be returned.

If we are to be redeemed or if our candle is to burn brightly again it is often without our own effort but by the faithfulness of God.  One does what one can and then releases it.


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