TRUSTING

Welcome home Pentali!  We missed you.

This is the book I am using to meditate and help me to focus on the gift of Jesus.  Ann Voskamp is an amazing writer who has come times of great struggles and heart aches.  She has experienced the ugliness of life.  She has seen her baby sister die in her mother's arms after being run over.  She knows what it is like to have panic attacks and to feel depression drag her into a place of emptiness.  She knows life!

Jesus reaches out to the scared and lost and wounded  souls to bring wholeness to our  lives with compassion.  Our role is to also look for the good in people that may not even be there yet, but trusting and waiting for it to happen. 

Walking in the beauty of the Vancouver with trees all sparkling with lights it seemed a fairy world.   Young people walking by arm in arm chatting happily and yet even there we see the poor begging as they sit on the cold hard ground. 
What has brought them their? 
Did they know the love of parents? 
Why did life become so painful they could not cope?

 Did someone  they trusted let them down? 

How do any of us regain our sense of worth when we have been made to feel worthless because our trust in another was broken.

 

Trust in the goodness and faithfulness of the way of Jesus,  helped me to keep on walking and learning to allow others to become trustworthy once again.  Trust can destroy or build relationships,  I have learned to try to give others the benefit of the doubt.  There will always be controversy especially over religion and in church meetings.  Listen and try to see the others point of view.

 

"Truth doesn't just enlighten us, it obligates us."  When others expect the best of us we learn to do the same.  "We are in some sense constantly creating one another."  A smile, an encouraging word a visit  all project meaning into an other's life.

 

Now when we go visit with the elderly we see our future and it is tough.  We went to visit Gordon in the Nursing home.  He was very glad to see us and we were able to have a little chat.  He is about the same age as dad.  I love to hear the music therapy lady playing and singing with the golden oldies.  What a great ministry!  I am thankful we can do this together!  We were glad we had gone.

Dad put out Christmas lights but  after visiting did not feel up to his walk.

Another cold morning this Wed. morning. I go to a Christmas party with the U.C.W. ladies.  We will have fun as we are a jolly group.  I am going to read dad's story about a Christmas when he was a young lad and set out to buy a present for his mom.  It is a touching story.  Dad is going out for lunch with Geof.  We are missing our get togethers with Jane and Geof but they are very busy packing ready to move.