Wednesday, December 2, 2015

STARKNESS

There times in life when reality seems to hit us with a starkness that threatens our existence.  The pain in dad's feet was worse again and is very debilitating.  and depressing.  There is not much one can say to encourage him.  He talked to Ken last night and Ken suggested acupuncture. 

It is hard to face the problems in our life and to know what decision to make.  People can demand too much of us by asking the impossible.

Not much is said in the gospels about Joseph except that he was a righteous man and also a dreamer.  He found himself in a very confusing and frightening situation that is beyond his understanding.  Does he listen to the advisors that come and tell him to have nothing to do with Mary.  He was an honest working man probably a craftsman.  He may have been a lot older than Mary.

He had a message from heaven that he was to marry Mary and be her protector and faithful husband.  She would need his help at the birth and during the years that followed to bring Jesus up.  Both fathers and mothers are important in all our lives.

It would be great if we could go through life avoiding pain and weakness and stress.  Sometimes it is a matter of fighting a battle against the starkness that threatens to overwhelm us.  Being deeply loved by someone gives us strength that comes from within.

I cannot imagine a day without dad's love and patience to encourage me.
We may feel old and feeble but we are needed.

Off to see the skin Cancer dr. this morning.  Dad has a spot on his lip but seems to doing okay!
Thankful for this!

3 comments:

nancy-Lou said...

My goodness, that is just so sad to hear that Larry's pain is getting worse. Is there a pain clinic there? We have one in Winnipeg and they have helped many people with chronic pain. I have heard of doctors blocking nerves to stop chronic pain...also acupuncture would be able to quiet the nerves...it really works. Definitely worth a try.

I know how hard it is to see your husband suffer Beth. Carl lives with chronic pain too and some days it is pretty bad. He can get quite cranky and moody.
It takes a lot of love, understanding and patience to live with them. Sometimes I fail at it...but I guess we are all human!
Tomorrow Carl goes to the hospital as an out patient to receive an infusion of Rituxabab, a drug for Rheumatoid arthritis. It takes 5 hours, by intravenous...so I will run errands. It costs $5,500 and there are two infusions two weeks apart. Total of $11,000. It helps him a lot...so we are very lucky that he was approved by pharmacare to receive it. There is no cost to us.

My dentures wore out and were ready to break so I saw the denturist yesterday. He kept my dentures and is making me new ones..so I am gumming it! I had to go to the grocery store afterwards and was very lucky NOT to meet someone I knew! So today will be day 2 on the road. Back to Winnipeg to pick up my new dentures, Tomorrow will be day 3...very tiring and a $1,000 poorer.

The wolves killed a deer on the golf course and were howling off and on over the kill yesterday. I could hear at least six different voices...the golf course is only about an 8-minute walk from here. People are really nervous and there is a lot of contention between the don't harm the wolves and the let's trap them, people. The facts are over 400 permanent residents live in a four square mile island...that is us....and this pack of wolves has chosen to live here too....running in broad daylight on the streets, chasing deer, 12 dogs have been killed...that is the recorded number and quite a few cats....and our council and conservation are doing nothing.


I wish you and Larry and day free of pain,

Love, Nancy



Sandra said...

It must be very hard on you and dad to have this problem, along with all of the others that seem to have no answer or cure.

I hope you are going to try anything and everything. I would think at this point any relief would be welcome?

Very nervous about Lucy's surgery tomorrow. It is so hard to not feed her in the morning, and she hates going to the vet since she has had so many surgeries. Then since it is on her leg she will have to stop her walks... sigh.

Sandra

beth bennett said...

Life is not "pie in the sky" for any of us.

Dad off to skin cancer dr. this morning. I will ride shot gun because his foot sometimes does not work on the pedal. That will be stark news indeed if he cannot drive.

Enjoying a dry day knowing the rain is coming.

love mom